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guys, someday i will make a real livejournal update. possibly tomorrow (later today?). in the meantime, have a survey:

( stolen from Satan Himself )

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CAN I HAVE IT NOW PLEASE?

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[	music	|	not quite blonde, are we? more of a ...dirty blonde.	]

(nsfw)

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[	music	|	"mykonos" -- fleet foxes	]

so that whole placeholder entry thing didn't work so well, obviously. or i guess it did, it just took a long time to work.

anyway, here goes. a lot has happened since i updated last, and i think it's about half good and half bad. the gist of it is that i got a lot of my hours cut at work, which is nice because i was seriously starting to hate my life and horrible at the same time because i am making less than half of what i was making before. so i've been applying for other jobs and have two potentials in the running, but nothing that's going to happen anytime soon.

i've applied for several internships and haven't actually gotten any of them, which is bad because i either have to find one or i have to take another class in the fall. there's a little less than a month left before school starts, so i have my fingers crossed but not to the point that i'm not...still looking. it's a testament to the state of the economy that i can't even get someone to not pay me to work for them.

Bryce and i moved in together, which i think i said before, and it is very nice. our apartment is coming together and we get compliments on it anytime someone is over. my Mom came up the weekend of July 17th and we did a lot of things which included going to Cirque du Soleil's Kooza which was spectacular.

i have a lot of art to update with - i'm mostly trying to get character shit together so i can have decent references of them all, which is taking longer than it has any right to - but that'll have to wait because i don't have it all scanned. so i'll try to check back in tomorrow with that.

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[	music	|	none.	]

the problem with my livejournal seems to be that i rarely update it, much less with any form of real content. i guess i fail with journal-keeping because i generally prefer to keep my innermost thoughts well, private and don't see a whole lot of point in writing them down when i've spent so long thinking about them anyway. it feels too much like repeating myself, and i hate repeating myself.

anyway, here we are, summer's almost halfway gone. i've turned the corner and actually hate my job but i can't quit and i'm not having any luck finding a new one, so i'm stuck spending 40 hours a week in a place i get depressed thinking about. i guess when you're a 4-employee store, being unable to stand one of the four employees will really do that to you. i'm just struck by how much more introverted i am now than when i started this job, much less back when i was working at Express, or before then. it's hard to pinpoint what, exactly, has changed. the thought of interacting with people all day used to make me excited, and now it just makes me tired to the point that i don't even want to see my friends when i get off work, i just want to stare at the computer screen.

so, i have this weekend, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday, off and then i think i work 8 days straight and don't have a day off until the following Tuesday. and then...who knows. maybe i'll get an email or a call back from one of the places i sent my resume. probably not.

i've got some art in the works, though none of it is really what i was planning on working on this summer; at least it's something. i go so much slower when i'm not under pressure now, and i'm more easily distracted than i used to be. it seems like the adage about not making what you love into your "work" has come true, to a degree, although if i could just get paid to draw all day i would be so much happier.

tonight it was thunderstorming without actually raining, which was pretty cool. Minnesota could use a good thunderstorm; other than the violent downpour yesterday, we haven't really had weather to speak of in a while.

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[	music	|	fischerspooner/fleet foxes	]

( meme stolen from powerof3 )

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[	music	|	royksopp	]

here is a drive-by post about a dream i had last night before i forget it again:

so i was in a motel room. i believe this was some kind of bizarre combination of Dollhouse, Fringe, and Supernatural, which makes my subconscious entirely predictable in the way it chooses its source material but also completely bizarre in the way it was assembled. i was some kind of wealthy, good-looking slightly older woman and i was there with my paunchy balding husband. Jared Padalecki was also there, and he was some kind of robot/"doll" like in Dollhouse. he was all goofy and sweet and clueless and i think i may have also been his handler or something? and my husband or whoever left and i was trying to convince him that we had to leave now because we weren't supposed to be there, his engagement was over, but he was really attached to me and wanted to stay, to protect me from something.

anyway husband guy came back in with a bunch of other people and there was a lot of yelling and then all of a sudden the guy had some kind of device like a collar that he was coming towards Jared/Sam/whoever with and then Jared/Sam/whoever turned into a dog! a wiemaraner to be specific. and i was really upset and crying and stuff, and then when they put the collar on him he like...morphed into some kind of weird human-dog hybrid, like with a dog's sharp teeth but mostly human otherwise, and they were saying how he was ruined now and he'd have to be put down.

and that's basically where that ends. it is so beautiful outside.

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[	music	|	"getaway" -- solid gold	]

and now, in the continuing series Bands You Oughta Know, i present you Solid Gold. my love affair with Solid Gold began when they played MCAD's Black and White Ball my sophomore year of college. suffice it to say, these guys have a groove that is both danceable and entirely unique and they know how to put on a hell of a show for a bunch of sweaty, generally partially nude, and mostly drunk art students.

Solid Gold is a local Minneapolis band. after a wait which i know was both to me and chroma_keyed, my ... Solid Gold pusher?, they released their debut album, Bodies of Water, this past October. and it was amazing.

slowly, they are gaining the respect they deserve. they play the nationally-known (or at least Midwesternly-known) Rock The Garden festival at the Walker Art Center, headlining with bands like The Decemberists and Calexico, on June 20th. here's the first video from Bodies of Water and i encourage you to watch it! it's beautiful and it's only 2:30 long.

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contained within is a little discussion about the current state of Supernatural fandom, which a) nobody should reasonably care about and b) is bound to cause butthurt if it ever gets noticed anywhere - to which i say only that i hope my tradition of being completely ignored by fandom continues.

( within. )

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[	music	|	"hornett" -- all the saints	]

hey guys, i moved! more about that later. in the meantime, from the continuing Bands You Oughta Know series, shall we call this neo-grunge? All the Saints, a delightfully dirty, lo-tech, absolutely rockin' band with sound that's totally unique in today's music world (also, enjoy the bargain basement budget this video was filmed on):